sobota, 10 września 2011

childhood fears

Recently I re-read some of my favourite Stephen King's novels: Salem's Lot, IT, The Shining. Yeah I do like scary books, movies ect. But only good ones.
All these novels have one thing in common, something I have never paid any attention to, but this time, after re-reading all these books one after another, it just became so obvious.
These are all about children who were scared- and lonely. There was nobody to share their fears with? Or maybe, these fears just could not be shared?

I started to recall my own childhood fears. Of course, I was afraid of ghosts ect, but this thing never bothered me too much. Other fears were more real. And I do not remember myself, being a child, sharing this with anybody; not even my friends.

So first of all, I was a victim of communist policy- the tv propaganda, and taming of solidarity movement. I was 7-8 years old at the time.
I remember people running, trying to escape the special police units. If one wasn't running fast enough, they would catch him, or her, and the 'fun' would start. The beating. They did this to my father once. People would even run on the roofs of the buildings. Then came the tear gas; and walking to school in tears.
On tv one could see movies about 2nd World War, especially those about concentration camps were horrific. Some other topic? Here you go- USA gov wants to nuke us.
I mean seriously. Even in school we were trained how to behave when it happens. Note- no 'if' it happens, but 'when'.

So I remember going to summer camp when I was 8, and I remember myself crying in the night, because I was scared- what if the Americans nuke my town, my parents would die? -and I thought it would have be so much better if I did not leave, so I would die with them. I never told ANYBODY about it.
Or I was scared the Nazis would come again, and take my little brother to the concentration camp. I used to spend long hours thinking about ways to hide him- he was a cute 2 year old at the time.

Seems so absurd now but at the time it was so real for me. I wonder if anybody had similar experiences?
Well I wonder how many children have such fears -NOW. How many children are afraid of a possibility that their families would be tortured or killed, their homes destroyed? Just thinking.

czwartek, 8 września 2011


As far as I recall, there always had been a sense of unity between Polish muslims- sunnis, sufis, shias, it did not matter too much, as long as we were all muslims.
We were all very fitna-conscious, and being a tiny minority we would rather remain united.
This positive approach changed however, about 2 years ago- and I'm sad to say- with the growth of salafi community...
Suddenly it became very clear that being a sunni means being a 'true' muslim, and being a shia makes one to be a kind of a shady individual; better not to hang out with such or, God forbid, to talk to such a person- who knows maybe being shia is contagious? Better be extra careful.
Some lies about shias were spread by some people even few years back, but it did not matter too much.
Anyway things have changed.
I found myself being deleted from certain fb muslim groups, or blocked by few people.

I wonder why would people do such things?
As far as I understand my being shia- it's nothing more but another muslim madhab. First of all I am a muslim.

Funny thing is, people who spread the most unbelievable lies about shias, are the same ones who cry the most about unbelievable lies spread about muslims in general.
Brothers, sisters- so spreading lies about shias is perfectly ok; but spreading lies about muslims is not? You do not like being in position of somebody who is constantly humiliated by lies? Well why don't you stop telling lies about us, shias for a change?

No, we do not have different Qur'an.
No, we do not believe Ali ibn Abu Talib is God.
No, we do not believe Gibril made a mistake and gave Qur'an to Prophet Mohammad /pbuh/ instead of to Ali ibn Abu Talib.
The list is very long. Too bad.